Baby~ You are just too Precious!

2010-03-11T09:59:00.000+08:00

HEY!

wow, it's 2010 already LOL!

ah, i really don't know how to start blogging. uh... um... well...

i resigned my work previously but boss offered higher salary so i'm back once again lol!

in summary,

celebrated chinese new year as usual it's always fun with all my cousins around gambled throughout a day. valentine's day, baby brought me to a romantic restaurant that i have never heard before, it was so sweet and the food was so dam nice! (thumbs up for the mushroom, best one i have ever had)

went for a chinese new year outing with Tooties, everyone was so well dressed <3

birthdays and maybe some other stuffs that i couldnt recall.

trying to find more time to meet all my friends recently, i really don't like losing contacts due to the lack of time.

just this year, i have experienced some new feelings towards baby, there are good and bad ones but we're all fine especially when he knows how to give in to me when it's needed.

i don't know if anyone is still checking on my blog as it was so dead previously, but for those who are still doing so, thanks! love love <3

2009-12-10T20:25:00.000+08:00

Haven't been blogging for so long lol.

Yay! Going to Taiwan next friday~ so looking forward to it!

Baby is so busy in camp, yet I'm so rotting at home ;; So bored!!!!!

lol really have nothing to blog about. will be back with more contents after the Taiwan trip!

2009-11-26T10:22:00.000+08:00

are you only contented after all these? sacrificing the one u claimed to say u love just to prove that you're right? now that you have proved it. good for you.

2009-11-17T16:59:00.000+08:00

Backie~ Sigh.

Somehow.. I realised that I dont really bear to leave this office.. my boss.. my colleagues.. (except HER) everyone is so nice (except HER!!) well.. I will still be back in this office! I won't let Ee Fann and Shann down. I also realised that I actually looked upon Shann as my role model so much, but I didn't know it till recently. Just wait till I reach 21, it will be the time when P38 really grows and I mean it!

ok.. anyway~ We celebrated our 2nd year anniversary watching a movie and the dinner in Marina Bay pier, some sort of boat buffet dining. The boat has a really nice ambience and the food was fantastic! but the problem is.......... I GET SEASICK FUCKING EASILY!!!! Baby planned so well for our anniversary and I know that he was quite disappointed, just that he didn't show it out. Sorry baby, didnt mean it ;; we shall get any other future dinners in restaurants that stand still on ground ones ok, not moving moving ones ok?? hahaha! <33

What else? oh yea, 2 of the Tooties babes are celebrating their birthday on this Sunday, and I'm sure that we're gonna rock it down!!

Gotta get back to my work already! cya ppl~

2009-11-04T09:55:00.000+08:00

Hey PPL! I passed my M5 - Capital Makets & Financial Advisory Services!

Been so long since I have taken an exam already and frankly speaking I'm not someone who can study. The moment I want to study, definitely I would get sleepy.

Anyway I passed and I'm really happy about it! 2 more exams to go and I can be officially contracted as an insurance agent (when I turn 21 -.-")

4 more days to our 2nd Year Anniversary! Won't be spending alot on that day as we are saving hard for the Taiwan trip!

sigh. contradicting. what do I really want......

2009-10-28T16:13:00.000+08:00

Hello peeps.

We have booked our tickets and hotel to Taiwan, from 18th Dec - 22nd Dec. soooo looking forward to it!!

Anyway, I took my M5 exam paper ytd, and I failed it. I could say that I'm really unlucky to get all the tricky and difficult questions, but well, don't wanna blame it on the questions. I will still re-take it, just feel bad wasting my boss's money for the exam fees.

Had quite a bad day ytd, menses cramp for the entire day, failed my M5 and quarrelled with xiaobai. Sorry xiaobai, we just chose the wrong timing to talk on sensitive stuffs. lol. But well, everything is alright now.

Oh yea friends, in the meantime, please let me know if you have any jobs available for me. Will only be working in this office till the end of Nov.

Gonna meet baby during his nites out in awhile. <3

2009-10-20T10:15:00.000+08:00

I'm gonna be jobless at the end of November lol. Told the boss about my resignation ytd. Couldn't tolerate my colleague's attitude and her freaking PMS anymore. She's really the worst working partner I have ever met. Seriously speaking, she can be such a person who pulls a long black face throughout the whole freaking day! Well, I do have some nice colleagues over here, whom I don't really bear to leave, sigh. I will still be coming back to the office for some trainings and will be able to visit them frequently.

Anyway, Baby is bringing me to Taiwan on my birthday! So excited about it! Thanks baby!! Looking forward to Dec. A new job awaiting for me and also the Taiwan trip. <333

2009-10-16T12:12:00.000+08:00

bored bored bored.

procrastinating..... taking my M5 exam paper on the 27th Oct, only given 2 weeks to study. The book is in front of me yet I'm not even looking at it. sigh.

how I wish that I can remain as a kid forever, mummy pampering me, no obligation to come to work, no nothing!

when can I ever stop working? it's just the negative side of me acting up again.

fucked up.

2009-10-08T11:51:00.000+08:00

Happy Anniversary Baby~ it's the 23rd month already, love you <33

sigh, I don't really know what's wrong with me, but I'm feeling so moody and lonely. Perhaps it's because I haven't seen baby for quite a few days already and he's way too busy with all the exercises that they are having. Realized that I have been kind of negative for the past few days, procrastinating, feeling down for every tiny matters and having countless of wild thoughts every night before I could get to sleep. I must stop behaving like this for god sake. diu.

Having BST (Basic Sales Training) in the evening today and thanks to Bong, Ah boy and Nigel, they are willing to come and attend it! ^_^

2009-10-06T10:20:00.000+08:00

I'm back. Not dead yet. Had been so sick last week, sigh. Asthma attack again and so serious this time ;;
Luckily baby was around to take care of me, nagging at me to take medicine, preparing food for me to eat and giving me that fierce look when I wanna take cold drinks LOL! Thanks baby! love you <33

Now I'm back in the office, as usual, not enjoying myself except for my lunch break with Andy and Jocelyn.
Sigh, I don't like working here anymore. No freedom, no nothing. Once I thought that this place has a good working environment, with a good and understanding boss, good colleagues working with me. I was so wrong. sigh. Even when I was so sick and had no choice but to take MC, people just wouldn't believe it and someone here is always showing some freaking attitude every single day, I don't even know what's wrong with her! Don't even know how have I offended her! Gradually knowing about the politics that are happening in the office. Nothing is keeping me here. But I just can't quit yet! Not when I have not found another job. Still have to support my parents, sister wants to go Thailand, saving some money for her to spend over there, my own expenses and bills. I just can't quit this job no matter how sick and tired I am. Please let me know if there's any available jobs elsewhere.

2009-09-30T11:30:00.001+08:00

I'm so sick!! Dying in the office.. So weak and breathless! I need rest!!

2009-09-28T16:55:00.001+08:00

Yoyoyo! I'm back! Fantastic weekend spent with baby <3

Silly boy rented a car just to drive me around, so sweet! We got lost for so many times hahaha, but still managed to get to the destination all the time. That was also the first time that I got so nervous sitting in a car. Now I can totally understand how a woman would be when her boyfriend/husband is driving. "careful careful!" "look look, someone is crossing!" "slow down!" =X

We're gonna save hard and afford a car ourselves in future!

Baby is booking out tmr again. So happy!

*sore throat and running nose is killing me! dam.

The silly boy <3

2009-09-24T10:37:00.001+08:00

I hate the NS journey that baby is going through now. I don't like them! They are not fit to love someone else! The immature thinking, not respecting and nonchalant attitude for their loved ones are really unbearable! I believe that even a kid would know how to treat others in a fair way, e.g. If you dislike others doing things behind your back, you yourself don't do it too! I don't give a shit to the saying, "nothing is fair in this world" bullshit it is. I really hate how people sees a woman having an affair is being called "shameless, slut, 给男人戴绿帽" while a man having an affair, it would be "normal, a man needs it, nothing serious"

Seriously, that's fucking bullshit to me, to all those guys that are reading my blog, give some comments on this.

Baby, I want you to know that, I trust you because you're a really a sweet and nice boyfriend, but yet it's difficult to trust as you are facing them everyday and you're a man too. I know that you have no choice and you have to be with them, as you are stucked in there. Yes I know I'm lacking of self-confidence right now and wrong for not trusting you wholeheartedly. It's difficult to achieve that high standard of "trust" when facing the reality that they are always around you. I'm not a saint, I'm just a woman and all I want from you is, please be fair to me, it's more than enough. I love you.

2009-09-23T14:51:00.000+08:00

YAY BABY PASSED HIS DRIVING TEST!

I have a chauffeur without a car ROFL! anyway he will be renting a car soon just to drive me around! so looking forward to it! Silly boy wanting to drive me like mad but I love him being silly =p

So relieve that I still have some people to hang out with in this office. Things would be so difficult for me without them around. Thanks Andy, Jocelyn, Charles, Clarise, Dai Lin, Avenlin and Ping Ding!

Yay! just got a news that I don't have to work overtime tmr! The training is re-scheduled to 2 weeks later hehe!

So happy recently! My WoW char is lvl 80 already! *addict

Sneezing so badly in the office today. Baby must be missing me too much. LOL!

*back to work. ciaos~ <3

2009-09-14T11:21:00.006+08:00

So much to say!!

I shall start with the situation that I'm facing in the office recently. Way too much of politics after the merging of the entire agency. I don't know what's wrong in her mind, complaining and backstabbing are her only forte? What can she gain from that?! Nothing but politics and all sort of troubles isn't it! sigh. I call her the Black-Faced Demon, showing attitude and putting on an aggressive look everyday. Here I introduce all of you another creature, the 2 Faced Lizard Demon! His only ability is being a hypocrite! Being nice in front of you and stabs you at the back, not for one time but fucking many times! Both of them really suit each others, best couple in the century. Pls fuck off from my life,unless it's necessary, WE SHALL NOT TALK!

Now for the happier part!

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY FOR BOTH MY RETARDED SISTERS!

One falls on 11th Sep and the other one 12th Sep. Thanks to my parents! I see holes in my wallet -.-

Anyway, I hope both of them enjoyed this year as this is the only year that I really put in some efforts to make it memorable.

To Wei: don't be so pessimistic in future, have more confidence in your friends and most importantly, yourself! Unless you lose faith in yourself, no one is gonna abandon you. Get this in your brain!

To Hui: enjoyed the surprise we planned? haha! you ah! try to control your attitude and the tonality when you reply others! don't have to be so hostile all the time.

Now a part dedicated to Baby.

Baby~ I know that my temper is getting really bad recently. I can really feel the stress in my work and also the situation here is really pissing my ass off. Sorry for shouting and throwing temper at you. I also noticed that I get annoyed by tiny little issues, I don't want it this way too. You're my everything. Thank god that you can always tolerate me, telling me all these by talking to me and not shouting me back. I can never tolerate people shouting at me lol. Finally we got to level 70 already! Just 10 more levels to go! So looking forward to it! hahaha!

Last but not least, I Love You Baby, Forever and Ever! <3

2009-09-04T12:43:00.000+08:00

Hey people, i'm back <3

Firstly, HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY HANI <3
The letter has been sent out, you will be receiving it in anytime! You're and forever will be my dearest hani, don't even try to get away from me.

I figured out what was wrong with my blogger, I was on the outdated posting option LOL!

Emm, lets see.. went to Sim Lim and bought 2 LCD for our computers. It's a 20 inch LCD and we really love it!
Well, as usual, working everyday but things are getting quite messed up recently, we have a few new staffs and they are handling most of the work. I'm so confused on my own job scope now.. i hope they will actually clarify things with me soon. We have a new colleague with the name Jocelyn now. lol! same name as my previous puppy colleague. Really enjoy with her presence in the office, at least I wouldnt feel that lonely anymore.
Baby is on leave for next week, for the entire week! when can I ever get a job with such leave? =(
I miss baby already. I miss playing WoW already.

I have decided to be an insurance agent when I turn 21. I'm gonna strive really hard for it and I will really need all of my friends to support me in this career. Thanks in advance =)

2009-08-26T16:36:00.000+08:00

I dont know what's wrong with blogger! this posting page is so weird! i dont see the option to change my font etc etc..

anyway, have been so busy recently! finally, the surprise birthday party for baby is over and it was quite a great one! i'm so glad that baby and the others enjoyed it! Special thanks to Tooties for helping out in the chalet! oh ya! big big thanks to ah boy! he helped out the most!! thanks ah boy!!

looking at our future.. it's gonna be a real hectic route.. i hope that i will have the faith to go through those..
ppl.. pls give me the support.. i really need it ;;

i love you.

2009-07-29T12:09:00.002+08:00

blogging in the office~~
well... not in the mood to blog on anything right now.. but this is the only place that i can spit things out.. im starting to have such an annoying and irritating feeling for myself and i really hope that you won't have this feeling for me, but if you do, pls let me know.. i dont know if you will get to see this, but i just wanna say.. thanks cool, you're really a great friend.

2009-07-13T12:03:00.002+08:00

Watched "Obsessed" with baby last night.. I can say that it's really a nice show! The storyline is so so but most importantly, it made me realise that, there are good guys in this world too.. it really boost some faith for me towards guys.. I would totally recommend couples to watch it, it would be a silent lesson for guys =p

Leaving the office at 3pm today, catching another movie with baby before he books in tonight <3
It will be "20th Century Boys Part II" ltr on.. watched Part I and it was great, wonder how Part II will be like. I will blog about it soon! =p

2009-07-11T23:28:00.003+08:00

Tiredddddd!
Went out with the audi group except mami today hahaha! cant blame her, she was too packed with her work.. poor thing.. working so hard on saturday too..
haha everyone is still the same.. lame, crappy, shooting each others with words, but....
ALL OF US ENJOY IT HAHAHA! THEY WOULDN'T ENJOY WITHOUT ME AROUND! I KNOW THIS IS SO TRUE, SO ALL OF YOU DONT HAVE TO DENY EITHER <3
anyway! really enjoy going out with them..
Beng, still as nice to be teased as ever..
Nigel, still as gentleman as ever, for carrying my laptop for the whole day =p THX NIGEL DIDI!
Timx, yawns.. sian of her already.. nth to say.. LOL! ok la.. she's sweet also, my lesbian partner.
Too bad mami couldnt join us today.. MAMI, we miss u la! T_T

blogging in starbucks, waiting for baby, ndp thingy is so annoying, it's taking up so much of his time sigh.. it's only 11 plus now.. and he will be reaching in like 2 hours time ;; *sleepy*

*poof~ will blog again soon <3

2009-07-03T10:37:00.004+08:00

starting to realise the ugly side of humans..
being unfaithful.. betraying and cheating on your loved ones..
excuses and reasons to cover up even though knowing ownself is at wrong..
i thought all these could only happen in dramas.. but i was so wrong.. soooo wrong!
thank god baby isnt one of these creatures..
i trust him!

anyway~ went for pool with timx ytd.. and also, finding out the prices for broadband services lol.. i will be signing up a 6 months contract with M1 and it's totally within my budget! it's so cool.. the contract is only 6 months so that means i can always get another promotion again after the 6 months.. <3

gt the tickets for the rehersal national day parade from baby.. going with timx, xiaobai and wei tmr.. should be nice since baby is always praising about it lol! gonna enjoy shopping with them tmr before we go for the parade!

yay! going for bball ltr on! happy happy!

missing baby~

2009-06-18T12:05:00.003+08:00

What is the most pathetic issue in this world?
Unable to control your emotions, your feelings and the way you would react when it's out of control!

I have tried... i tried to control my feelings, tried not to make things difficult for you, seriously, i did try to! what else do u wan me to do.. I HAVE TRIED EVERYTHING I COULD! seriously.. tell me what can i still do to not to feel this upset... this is really pathetic... it's jus so contradicting!! telling myself it's normal, it's normal.. I KNOW IT'S FREAKING PERFECTLY NORMAL! like i have said.. I COULDNT CONTROL MYSELF NOT BEING UPSET!! i wouldnt want to make things this difficult if i had no feelings on it.. Can somebody tell me that you understand how am i feeling? at least i wouldnt feel that abnormal as you always say so..

i miss home.. i miss the previous me before knowing you........

2009-06-16T12:39:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY GUGU LAODA PHILANA!!!!!!!

It's definitely not a week for me! ;; sore eye, asthma attack, coughs.. so bad laaa ;;

went out with some Tooties members last sunday, for phil's bdae celebration, it was fun! but due to some reasons, we were kinda disappointed too.. but, everything will be alright.. forgot where did i read this.. very interesting and it's so true haha.. Good friend is the one who always help you up when you fall. Best friend is the one who always laugh out loud when you fall, help you up and trip you again. Friends are forever.. we have to learn to cherish everyone around us before it's too late..

boredom in the office lol. gonna get my lunch now~ take care peeps <3

2009-06-11T11:08:00.002+08:00

Peaceful days recently.. back to runescape! anyone with me?? =p tmr is friday! i love friday as the next day is saturday and also bball session on friday wahahha! havent been playing bball for the last 2 weeks or maybe last week? bla~ dont rmb.. i miss Tooties! im missing so many ppl ;; work has been easy for this week, nt much stuffs to do and i managed to play rs for abit in the office =x know quite a few friends in rs.. most of them are from msia, quite a fun group, but they are always lying to me! (lie in a joking term)

missing baby now.. grr.. so angry with him last night but forget it.. everything is over lol..

a random post. dont know what to blog about.

update soon again~

2009-05-27T09:28:00.002+08:00

ihateyou... ihateyousomuch... but what can i do to you.. nth!! i really hate you.... fuckedup..

2009-05-19T10:53:00.003+08:00

what's wrong with this world?
ppl are not treasuring what they have yet abusing it.
it's ridiculous.
earn ur trust and don't demand for it.
be sensitive to the feelings of your love ones.
try not to be the worst though no one is perfect!

2009-05-14T16:43:00.002+08:00

hate dota. hate dota. hate dota. hate dota. hate dota. hate dota! I HATE DOTA!

i dont know what's wrong with me.. i jus hate it so much when you play dota.. and yet you are always playing no matter how i complain about it.. forget it... whoever plays dota, get off from my blog kthx!

im off here. bye.

2009-04-30T12:04:00.001+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

lol. exclude the part about education, how true do u think it is? =p

2009-04-23T10:53:00.002+08:00

hey all! i'm back! lol! results were really good for the roadshow last week! new agents of ours must have gained lots of experience in both prospecting and presenting! almost all of them closed cases during the roadshow! so happy for them! *thumbs up for them lol! despite the hot weather and rejections, everyone worked hard! nice experience for me too!

due to some reasons, i really really dislike army boys.. *hatred*

I'm playing Rappelzsea now! anyone else interested to play? hani? darling? timx! lol! taking half day off ltr and baby will join me to play rappelz in pcbunk lol! gotta get back to work now!

will update soon (i hope so)

Missing Tooties T_T sry.. kinda busy nowadays.. will catch up with you girls soon! love <3

2009-04-12T10:39:00.003+08:00

moody.. dont know what for.. no mood for anything rite now.. damn it..

wont be blogging for next week.. having roadshow in the pasamalam next to causeway point..

that's all..

2009-04-06T15:49:00.003+08:00

lol dam.. have been gazing into the screen thinking of what to blog for like 10mins already?! brain isn't working at all.. sigh.. i miss jocelyn (my puppy) crapping in the office.. she got fired becoz of some politics in the office.. (dam that person!) been so moody recently.. have no idea what's gotten into me.. poor baby tolerating such me.. haix.. keep telling myself not to behave like this.. but i couldnt control it at all.. getting pissed off over small matters and making them big for arguements.. sry baby ;;

poor baby is sick.. slight fever and his blood pressure went up to 160 for dontknowwhatreason!??!? i hope he's recovering soon.. so worried whenever he's feeling unwell..

hope everything is fine for laoda and peiyi too.. both of u better update me on things hor! tmd -.-

2009-03-26T09:50:00.007+08:00

TOPIC FOR TODAY: I HATE THAT IDIOTIC "好人" IN THE OFFICE!!

Dam it la... he's such an eyesore in the office now! Rated No. 1 Most sickening person in my life! can you pls stop acting cute!! you are not even 0.00000000000000001% cute ok!! look at yourself before you criticize others, toad eyes, lizard body and that screening voice of urs.. ewww! It would be good to make you rinse with a full bottle of DETTOL and make it clean!!!!!! GRRRR!!! seriously i wonder how my precious boss is able to tolerate with such a person like u in his group, he must be awarded with the best patience in the world.. i hope you can just stop crapping all the fucking non-funny jokes with us, it's really a chore listening to you crapping!! dam it, just stop talking to me for whatsoever reasons! screw you! grrrr.... enough of this idiot....

This is really a bad week for me.. not feeling very well recently, fever, headache and sore throat!! and and and! having such an idiot in the office.. (ok enough of him!!) The only motivation for me to get my ass to the office now is, the 2 gossiping colleagues of mine! it's gonna be very different without them in the office anymore.. the retarded puppy and co-owner of the puppy lol!

I'm really really looking forward for tmr's bball session with my Tooties and my precious weekend with my baby!! Love them so much!!

2009-03-23T09:55:00.003+08:00

Not feeling well today.. it's all wei's fault la! we slept in the same room with the air con on and i got her virus ;; having slight fever and sore throat now.. almost blacked out in the 40mins train ride just now.. too packed and no seats for me ;;

this reminds me of my secondary school life.. that 2 buddies who were always there to drag me to the general office whenever i was feeling sick lol! Thanks to the 2 P devils!! =p

Anyway~ some of the Tooties went to Escape last sat but we took only ONE ride in there, due to the bad weather... -.-! it's still fun going out together though.. that was our hotdogs day too, we had hotdogs for lunch and dinner LOL!

Photos Time~ Enjoy~

Blame this!!!

Our First and the Last ride of the day -.-!

Timx being so sad =p

Imitation =)

We still had fun!

2009-03-19T09:19:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO MY DIDI HAOHAO!!

JIEJIE LOVES YOU!!

I really put on weight this week.. baby has off days from the army and we are eating alot everyday! he's so sweet to prepare dinner and supper, and he's so talented in it! everything was so delicious! photos below~ =p

Look! Sweet & Sour pork, Sweet potato leaves, Steamed fish and Sze Chuan Duck soup!!

The 4 S Dishes for Shixian! (i just notice all the food names start with S LOL)

DELICIOUS!~ Thanks baby!! I LOVE YOU!!

Baby took this when i was trying to act emo when he played GTA! Do i looked emo? LOL!

THIS was taken last year of baby being drawn on my hand by Xiaobai, and thanks to Cherry for saving me out from the 2 P devils, Peiyi n Phil!!

2009-03-13T09:27:00.002+08:00

dont know what to blog for these days.. i miss my friends so much... all my friends... seriously, i have to find some time to meet all of u out once again..

as for Jervine, i dont know if you are reading this.. i dont care if u believe this or not, all the while i have been treating u as my good friend, meeting u out is definitely not a way to cure my boredom, i hope u wont think like this anymore.. sometimes it's all your negative thoughts and i really dont know how can i help with this since you tell me nothing.. anyway, just give me a call if u need someone to talk to..

boring life doing boring stuffs........

2009-03-07T00:28:00.003+08:00

work in the office is never ending... but somehow, im enjoying it! the dream of growing big with my boss is really motivating me to work hard, to be responsible and taking ownership for whatever tasks that im assigned with, esp when my boss is a really nice person to work with! i have switched quite a couple of jobs before i got into this and frankly speaking, he is the BEST boss that i have ever met! he could be kinda demanding at times, but i strongly believe that's what we need to excel in everything we do!

baby is booking out tmr! so happpyyyyy! miss him so much!

really enjoy the time spent with my crazy friends... never ending laughters... love you girls! <3

2009-03-02T22:40:00.002+08:00

Yo~ lets see what can i update this time.. well, had a quarrel with baby over a silly matter last week lol.. well of course, everything's solved again lol! anyway, that's how couple works.. impossible to maintain a relationship without any arguements and it's just like a whole life game, clearing stages and gaining levels all the time LOL. weird metaphor i know. -.-!

Blogging at home now.. so bored.. just came back from dinner with baby as he was having his nites out hehe.. met him for a couple hours only.. anyway, it's much better than not seeing him at all for a whole week.. so i shouldnt be greedy! be contented with what i have!

Somehow, im missing laoda sia.. she's too busy nowadays la!! -.-! you better find some time to meet up with us.. if not u better watch ur butt when u meet me!

ok.. i shall go off now.. baby is calling me soon hehe tc peeps~ ciao~

2009-02-26T11:25:00.004+08:00

Baby finally had his nites out last night~ went to newton for our dinner, the stingray was awesome!! chilli crab wasnt that bad either.. sweetest thing was baby of course LOL! we went for pool in amk next, and i won for 4 games! therefore he's gonna get a forfeit for it =p

and im so sleepy today..... someone talk to me in msn..... finish updating on powerpoint slides~ finish on my follow ups~ appointments came~ what else to do.... i dont know -.-!

Random post here hehehe <3

2009-02-23T09:32:00.009+08:00

Sooooo Happyyyyy~~~ I'm so happy! baby finally allows me to play Audition again! I was so surprised to see the icon on his desktop, thx baby!!! i love u so much!
he did that to surprise me, love it so much!!

i really really really miss playing Audition with them! (you should know who you are lol!) played a few games last night with hani and darling, so nice that they were still around! that means.. i can get to play whenever im in baby's house, *hint hint, hani pls be online during weekends <3

Luckily baby booked out on sat, if not i wouldnt know how could i have spent my weekend!
Again, he made "bak kut teh" for me on sunday, still as delicious like always hehe =p

This morning i had a very weird n scary feeling... im so afraid to lose you.. i dont know why, but that feeling just appeared when you took the cab.. i know im over-relying on u, i just couldnt help it.. ;;

my thoughts: sometimes, even small conversations between each others can show how much you are being appreciated. Bragging to the whole world how much you have suffered from your partner won't solve anything and also it won't be appreciated in any ways, why would you do that if you really love someone? Would you even bear to hurt him/her?

2009-02-19T11:38:00.002+08:00

my god..... i had a very sad nightmare last night! ;;
in my dream, my dad married another woman.... and he forced my mum to move out! our stepmother.. she has that typical dramatic evil woman look!! scolding us everyday, and my dad was always on her side... my sisters and I wanted to leave with my mum, but she didnt bear to see us suffering with her and at that moment when my mum stepped out of the house, we were all crying so badly!!! and i woke up... LOL!
Why am i having so many nightmares recently....... it's so weird..... all kinds of nightmares.. ;; this is so bad ;;

Anyway, Tooties went to old court for bball ytd, as usual, chatting and laughing all the way haha.. really enjoy times like this.. both of buddies brought new guys over lol! i hope they are really the right ones for them..
Peiyi, stop being so guai lan la omg bth u! havent learn from ur previous lessons issit.. dont only start to regret when u lose it!
Laoda, i really hope that he's the right one for you.. it's good to see that u have someone to take care of u now, but in case anything happens, no matter what, dont worry, we will always be there for you, that's what we are for.. <3

2009-02-18T09:17:00.004+08:00

boring, boring and boring.... nothing fun actually happen for this week.. oh ya, except for ytd, went out with timx to amk lol.. really enjoyed all the crap talks with her.. been so many years and we never failed to make each others laugh whenever we go out.. somehow our habits never change, amk = mos burger and pool for us.. lol! timx, im really happy to have u with me, the one that knows me the best and also the one that will always come for me whenever i need someone.. thank you so much and i love you! <33
omg timx.. i just noticed that we havent take photos together for ages!! we must do it soon!

back to work~ byebye~

2009-02-13T15:18:00.003+08:00

Yo im back~ pretty busy with work for this week too.. and i have been having weird dreams all night... ok i will share my dreams with everyone..

The scariest one was.... Baby and me were having holiday in whatsoever country~ and we met a group of barbarians, each of them was grabbing onto a very long and sharp bread as their weapons -.-! this is really very scary and funny in some ways.. ok so... we tried to run away from them so badly but somehow they were still managed to catch up with us... and baby tried to protect me, so he got stabbed by those long n sharp breads! those barbarians were satisfied after that and went off, leaving baby and me there, and i pulled baby to a riverside, wanted to clean his wounds for his, and suddenly tsunami occurred there, and i woke up. That's all for this weird and scary dream -.-! I think it's becoz i have been eating breads for breakfast frequently, so those breads appeared in my dream to revenge! -.-!

The other one, it's a dream about being super heroes.. actually i dont really rmb it.. so i shall not elaborate LOL

The next one.. which i just had it last night.. this is very very funny and sweet haha! i dreamt that darling (rainy) and her bf (dont know which one -.-) came over to sg lol! Baby and me went to meet up with them and to my surprise, she brought a dog along... and she was like, hi darling! this is Joy, pointing to the doggy.. LOL! so i was like, huh...? joy...? what happened? and the dog (joy) replied me! she said, i dont know what happened, i woke up one day and i realised that i changed into a dog! then i forgot what happened in between, just remember that i brought them around to play in Singapore, but we couldnt enter to any restaurant coz joy was a dog... LOL! dont remember how the dream ended too, my alarm clock just rang and i was still laughing when i woke up haha! ok joy dont kill me if u read this, im just stating my dream here lol!

Sigh.. baby isnt booking out today.. he will be out tmr morning ;; i hate army! grr...

haha ok la.. hafta get back to work already.. this is a week which i had all kinds of weird dreams.. is this a good or bad sign... no one knows lol.. anyway, take care my friends <3

2009-02-07T11:02:00.002+08:00

Im waiting for the piggy baby to wake up now~ so boringgggg~ stupid ah wei didnt reply me on msn! must be sleeping also -.- it's already 11:04am! they can really slp -.-!

out of nowhere, im missing the Tooties ;; some of them are so busy nowadays!
phil busy with exams
peiyi neh.. erm.. not sure about her LOL...
bong busy with work..
xiaobai ar.. dont miss her lol jkjk! anyway, seeing her in office everyday =p
timx! i wanna meet her badly! she must be feeling terrible nowadays ;;
cherry, not sure what is she doing recently too lol!
ah wei... yawns! dont wanna see her at all! LOL! jk =p

I'm hungry already! gonna go wake that piggy up now~ cya ppl <3

2009-02-06T16:07:00.003+08:00

Finally im a little free to blog for this week! omg laa this week has been like hell for meee! So busy with calls, appointments and interviews! hardly have the time to even chat in msn or to read on blogs ;;

And I FELL DOWN ON MONDAY! my leg is so dam ugly nowww! with scratches and blue blacks laaa....... how did i fall? when i was rushing for train in the morning (coz i was late already), and i just fell when running up the escalator, imagine that my leg just fell onto those sharp tips of the escalator!! dam it!

Busy busy.... gotta get back to work now! will update more if i have the time! *Poof*

2009-01-30T14:16:00.002+08:00

i miss youuuu............ ;;

i have nothing much to do in the office ;;

Boss told me that my colleague might be resigning... ;; sighhhh im gonna miss her so much....

looking forward for tmr's trip with my Tooties! havent met them for quite some time, lets enjoy ourselves tmr!

Girl.. i know u will be reading this.. rmb that u still have me ok.. just let me know if u need my shoulder by your side.. anytime if u need me to go over to dongdong or mac, dont hide everything to urself ok.. you know that i love u too <3

yay baby booking out ltrrrr!!!!! miss youuuuuuuuuuuuuu!!!!!!!

2009-01-28T09:58:00.004+08:00

HEY 祝大家牛年快乐万事如意大吉大利红包多多!!!! HAHAHAHA!!!

Yo! Did everyone enjoy ur cny celebration and reunion dinner?? got lots of ang bao?? haha this year is great for me lol! enjoyed myself with all my lovely "黄家人" and also with baby's friends! Gambled throughout the day on 初二, started at around 2pm in my cousin's house and i went over to baby's house at 8pm. (yay! my surprise worked out! heheheh) It's always fun gambling with them and i won $50-$60 this year! Again we gambled in baby's house, the bets there were much more smaller than my side and they are a group of fun guys to be with, really funny group haha!

CNY! <3

I realised that i didnt really take photos during CNY! soooo badddd!!! anyway there are only 2 photos, 1 of my zi-lian and 1 taken in baby's house with the group of ns boys without facing the camera hahaha!

Upcoming event : Outing with Tooties on this sat! not sure about the venue yet, still deciding haha! Lets enjoy ourselves Tooties!

Baby booked in ytd, i hope he has his nights out ltr on! I'm missing him already ;;

2009-01-21T17:12:00.003+08:00

sigh having sore throat.... have been drinking strafruit juice for 2 days... and i took chicken rice with chilli ytd LOL! baby better not see this =x BUT! im such a good girl today! Had fishball kuay teow soup! =p

Had quite a good talk (through sms) with xiaobai earlier on, coz i couldnt stand her attitude these days haha.. anyway, everything's solved, and we r still as good as before! that's why communication is always important when it applies to both relationship and friendship! ok craps.. nvm.. lol!

and eileen that luo han tried to get me being disappointed just now by saying, "no nites out for ur baby!" ROFL! but tooo badddddd! he might be having his nites out ltr! cant confirm yet though hahaha! anyway she's more pathetic, as his bf is in tekong having field camp, which means, she cant even contact him through phone and he's only getting back to sg on friday! hahaha poor luo han bleahx! =p

2009-01-20T14:41:00.002+08:00

ok.. that si luo han wants me to blog about something i wanna say, which is... si luo han, chou luo han, forehead big big and panda eyes! hahahahahha! neh ni neh ni poo poo~ LOL!! wanna revenge? come out n meet with us laaaa! everyday stay at home not sian? toot!

anyway, im missing my baby ;; he's not having nights out tmr! sighhhh! i was so looking forward to it.... but nvm... i can still see him on friday hehe <3

meeting the Tooties ltr on~ so boring in the office nowadays~ im so sleepy too!

Sore throat.... so bad..... ;;

2009-01-19T10:28:00.003+08:00

I wanna shop for CNY's clothes!!!!!!! anybody freeeeee???? phil? peiyi? bong? hehe =p sigh.. have been helping my mum out with her debts, that's why im so broke nowadays....... ;; anyway, im trying to be as budget as possible with my clothings and meals lol!

Just last night i have realised something new in my life and it's really a fresh new thought to me.. Was talking to baby about some issues that i have been noticing in our relationship, which is we are no longer in our honeymoon period.. It was quite depressing going through that, as your partner is no longer as sweet and patient to you.. but.. thinkings are much more mature, true and realistic.. I think i have learnt quite alot in this..
Honeymoon period is always the period that nothing is impossible, just to make your partner happy, without thinking of consequences that you might face, without bothering about how others might think of you, you just wanna make your love one happy..
Aftermath of that would be more into mature thinkings, true words, and realistic.. true words as in, you will tend to let each others know how you really feel about them, and not just sweet talks, it can be how unreasonable, how selfish or even how childish they can be..
But i have to make this clear that, by telling them all these, doesnt mean that you are getting sick n tired of this relationship, in fact it jus shows how much you really wan to be with each others and it's how you are willing to accept the true-self of your partner.. remember that.. "No one is perfect in this world" and I really really like this phrase..

Just wanna let my friends, (if anyone of you is having the same problem as me) to know that it wont be a big problem if there's communication..

Baby.. though i really miss the previous you, but im still loving you no matter what <3

Eh eh Tooties, that doesnt mean that i dont love you guys LOL! Tooties is always the best clique that i have and will be forever! Muacks!~

2009-01-12T11:52:00.002+08:00

Baby's new bed set has arrived last sat.. it includes a new wardrobe, dressing table and a bed frame.. So we went over to his place to pack his room up before all the new stuffs arrive, while we were packing, something happened and we quarrelled so badly! ;; and he scolded me with vulgarities, it was the first time he scolded me with that....... so angry n sad! hate him so much at that moment and also realised something through that incident, which is that no matter how sweet your couple used to be, but when time passes, it's so hard and almost impossible for someone to remain the same as before.. sigh.. really hate the way he quarrelled with me.. so "beastly"..
So we were in such a cold war while we pack and i wanted to just walk off from his house after we finish packing! but he apologised before we could finish LOL! so yeah... such a tiring day for me... pack, wipe, throw and bla bla bla... ANYWAY! the new bed, new dressing table, new wardrobe rocks!!!! now i can put all my stuffs on the dressing table and there are 2 mirrors in his room now! rofl =p we wanted to catch a movie in the night but i was way too tired after all the packing, got my shower n ko-ed in the new bed =x

Went for "Red Cliff 2" ytd before baby went back to his unit.. it's a good show! worth the money =)

Looking forward to shop with my Tooties ltr on! gonna get our new year clothes! take care ((=

Acting Pai Kia

Nerdy him!

2009-01-05T10:12:00.006+08:00

LOL i know i'm "a little" late here but still

HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL MY LOVELY FRIENDS!!! =))

Did everyone enjoy the countdown with your love ones or good friends? Hope you guys did hehe =p

I tried to plan for the events on New Year's eve with baby, but it turned out so badly! ;; sigh.. Booked reservations for grilled steamboat in a restaurant which is quite popular in Bugis, but we were late and they cancelled our reservations... we could have waited for seats if the waiting time wasnt 45mins ;; So we ended up in a chinese restaurant, the food wasnt that bad but still so disappointed that we missed the steamboat coz baby wants to have steamboat for so long already ;; so then we went to vivo for a movie, "The Duchess", not a bad show, kinda touching, but i will say it's not a must watch show haha! There was a countdown session in vivo too so i thought there would have fireworks as well, but sigh again.... we could only hear the sound effects of the fireworks! it was so bad laaaaa and baby loves fireworks so much ;; what a disappointing night!

Finally we had our bball session last friday.. so long since we played, everyone's stamina has dropped! rofl.. panting like dogs just after a few balls LOL! weaky us hahah! I can no longer shoot as well as b4! So bad ;; the others were not bad, as in skill and teamwork.. only me sigh.. didnt play for too long, hafta get some time to train it back again!

I shall upload some photos of the crazy Christmas we had last year LOL!

The Logcake =)

Fairy Tales LOL!
The Fairy Godmother and The Witch

In the lift

The Bee of that night

Red Riding Hood and PinoBai haha!

The Dwarf and Pinobai

- The End -

2008-12-26T11:10:00.002+08:00

Merry Christmas to everyone! (one day late though =p)

Anyway, went over to phil's house on Christmas Eve and seriously we had lotsa fun! Costume party as fairy tales characters, giving out candies on the streets with our pretty costumes LOL, huge portion of spaghetti (poor peiyi finishing all the leftovers LOL), gifts exchange and i got a moo moo doll from Peiyi, it's very cute! thanks hehe.
The party was very fun especially when everyone was there, except timx and boi, they were held up by another group of friends in their chalet, a pity that they didnt join us ;; si za bo! your christmas present is still with me lol!

Was chatting with wei last night as she was so bored without internet and tv programmes at home haha.. heard something AWESOME from her.. coz i didnt know that alicia can be feeling that AWESOME from getting out of our lives, in fact im feeling so relieved, happy, oh ya and excited about every single thing that will happen on every single day without YOU in our lives, thank god that we made the right decision for not including you in the Tooties Tee, if not i would be regretting so much for now.. so ya.. thanks for leaving and i wish u all the best here =)

PS: I LOVE TOOTIES ( our Tees are awesome *cheers* )

(realised something bad that night which made me so sad and fed up ;; just cant get it out of my mind, if i could, i wish that i didnt see them! now i'm jealous and i can eat so many xiao long bao without vinegar!!! ;;)
Didnt sleep well last night.. your fault.. i tried not to think that much but they were flashing there whenever i closed my eyes ;; cant control it! sigh.........

2008-12-23T10:21:00.006+08:00

I saw this bulletin from Luo Han's (Eileen) blog and find it very very sweet and meaningful, so im gonna share it with everyone here <3

What every girlfriends will want to have.

When you break her heart, the pain never really goes away.

When she misses you, she's hurting inside.

When she says it's over, she still wants you to be hers.

When she repost this bulletin, she wants you to read it.

When she walks away from you mad, follow her.

When she stares at your mouth, kiss her.

When she pushes or hits you, grab her tight & don't let her go.

When she starts cursing at you, kiss her and tell her you love her.

When she ignores you, give her your attention.

When she pulls away, pull her back.

When you see her at her worst, tell her she's beautiful.

When you see her crying, just hold her and don't say a word.

When you see her walking, sneak up and hug her waist from behind.

When she's scared, protect her.

When she lays her head on your shoulder, tilt her head up and kiss her.

When she steals your favourite hat, let her keep it and sleep with it for a night.

When she teases you, tease her back and make her laugh.

When she doesn't answer for a long time, reassure her that everything is okay.

When she looks at you with doubt, back yourself up with the truth.

When she says that she likes you, she really does more than you could understand.

When she grabs your hands, hold hers and play with her fingers.

When she bumps into you, bump into her back and make her laugh.

When she tells you a secret, keep it safe and untold.

When she looks at you in your eyes, don’t look away until she does.

Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything.

DON'T let her have the last word.

DON'T call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is so much better.

Say you love her more than she could ever love you.

Argue that she is the best girl ever.

When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go.

When she says she's OK don’t believe it, talk with her, because 10 yrs later she'll remember you.

Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her.

Call her before you sleep and after you wake up.

Treat her like she's all that matters to you.

Tease her and let her tease you back.

Stay up all night with her when she's sick.

Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid.

Give her the world.

Let her wear your clothes.

When she's bored and sad, hang out with her.

Let her know she's important.

Kiss her in the pouring rain.

When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

2008-12-22T13:15:00.004+08:00

YO GUYS AND GIRLS! I'M BACK! LOL!

Ok lets see what can i update on haha..

19th Dec (Fri)
Some members of Tooties went over to Peiyi's church to attend an event, "HEROES", it was like a costume party, people dressing up as super heroes, like Batman, Superman bla bla bla~ LOL it was fun seeing so many super heroes in there.. Well, our main purpose were just to accompany Peiyi though LOL!

20th Dec (Sat) - MY BIRTHDAY!!!
Baby surprised me with presents he bought.. omg.. the present was all along in his bag yet i didnt even realise it >.>! ok anyway he gave me this present when we got back to his house after Peiyi's church event.. Guess what?! He bought this Dior Addict 2 package with the perfume itself, a body mosturizer in a very nice Dior bag, and also one Levis T-shirt which i find it too expensive and didnt bear to buy it, yet he bought it for meeee!!! Muacks~ baby <3>
So we went to GV Max for a movie and tried out the North Indian Cusine in the Heritage. I didnt really like it because of the spices in it i think.. Anyway, i enjoyed every moments with baby <3

21st Dec (Sun) - Birthday celebration with Tooties!
LOL I wont forget this celebration! They made me this big big hot pink card with attention seeking words on it and made me carry it for the whole day....... "TODAY IS MY BIRTHDAY MUST WISH ME HOR" and "I'M PRETTY, SEXY AND LOVABLE" Gosh.. it was sooooo embarrassing!! People reading on my board and smiling at me, and some of them actually wished me! friendly peoples LOL! So we went for KTV and Billy Bombers for dinner.. got this sabotage that i hafta drink 2 glasses of water with 5 straws within 1min (I HAD TO DO THAT AFTER MY DINNER! SO FULL CAN!) >.>! LOL so of course i failed and i got this forfeit, shout and confess to baby, with me at the 2nd storey and him the 1st storey....... very memorable! >.>!

2008-12-11T10:36:00.000+08:00

Baby POP-ED on tue, went to the graduation ceremony with his mummy and sister.. lol, i didnt really enjoy everything coz i was too hungry.. i didnt know that we had to take our lunch b4 we go, so i only had my meal at night and i was already freaking moody (i hate to go hungry) =x
Sigh.. didnt sleep well for the past 2 nights due to some incidents, sian.. Feel like i have lots of stuffs in my head recently, just that i really dont know how to break everything up and say it out.. so moody n fed up! GRRRRFREABFJNRKMYRHJTDAEREDFWTJ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway, we went to queenstown last night and collected our Tooties shirt already! quite nice, just that our Tooties logo wasnt big enough, if not it would be very perfect lol.. forgot to take a picture of our shirts, will post it up another time again..

2008-12-02T14:31:00.000+08:00

Here to update on the previous weekend.. It was soooo bad laaaaa ;; I was somehow having a sore throat and baby got infected by me ;; so he started to have fever and i was infected by his fever this time lol.. so in conclusion, both of us were so sick and weak -.-! went to see a doctor together and he got excused from army for 3 days.. I'm recovering though my throat still hurts a little, but poor baby.. still having throat infection T_T! all my fault ;; So worried if he's able to complete his marching in this condition b4 he gets to POP ;;
Anyway! baby is gonna POP next week! (if everything goes on smoothly) omg.. so excited for it! he's getting a 2 weeks break! yayyyy!

Xiaobai joined us as a surveyor today! hahah.. she's out with ah wei and the others now.. gonna be so fun and lively in the office in future! oh ya! i dyed my hair ytd hahaha.. it's like copper base n highlighted with red colour.. kinda bright colours.. i told the lady not to make it that bright.... but.... forget it lol! it's already on my hair, i jus have to accept it! LOL!

Tooties Tee! i think we should be able to get it this week! oh ya Tooties, just let me know if anyone of u cant meet us and pass the money to us, you can jus transfer it to my bank acc.. ask me for my acc number hehe, each Tee is $15..

ok.. shall end here and get back to my work.. this office is freezing me off! ;;

2008-11-28T14:27:00.001+08:00

Today is friday! I'm able to see baby tmr again yay! hehehe~ So how did i spend this week? GOOD! We finally ordered our TOOTIES Tee 2 days ago, designed by our famous artist, TOOTY XIAOBAI!! Will be collecting it next week i guess, everyone is so excited for it!! I'm wanna see everyone wearing it together! CUTE TOOTIES! So baby suggested that we should also design one and make it into couple tees! but the problem is................. none of us can even DRAW PROPERLY! forget about designing........ soooo.... ya..... xiaobai agreed to help us with this after her project work LOL! thanks so much my little xiaobai! love you so much! can't wait to get our tees.. both the Tooties and Couple tees hahaha!

Went for tie da (the so called chinese doctor who twist ur ankle LOL), but it was closed!!!!! A waste of time travelling there.. needa go again ltr ;; so scary laaa......... i dont want my ankle to be wrapped up like dumpling ;; T__T! Won't be able to play bball for sometime also.......... sighhhh ;;

Anyway! I'm still very excited to see my baby tmr and also our Tees! LOL! Take care ppl~ Ciao~

2008-11-24T08:51:00.000+08:00

Yoyo! Happy Belated Birthday to 2 of my best buddies! Timx and Mole girl Ang Pei Yi! Haha~
We had fun celebrating their birthday last night in a KTV at chinatown~ Bong is really #$%^#^#!#^~# She picked a weird song for me like omg.. ok not weird but just -.-! 环朱格格 - 有一个姑娘 -.-! I was totally dortz and diaoz! but overall, everyone was singing along together and it was fun <33
We are always a bunch of attention-seekers LOL! well, not really attention seeking, but it is really hard for the public to not focus on our behaviours hahaha.. Like ytd, we were rushing for the last train in Outram Park, so everyone was taking their own sweet time walking, and someone in our group gave a false alarm, "omg?! no time no time, run ar!!!" and we started runningggg and the public started to run with us too! LOL! so crazy la omg.. in the end we still waited for like 5mins for the train to arrive >.>! LOL! Memories of these gugu actions are really nice and funny.. So everyone went back home and i was so tired that i jus get changed and fell asleep in less than 5 mins =p

Today is a brand new start for this week and I'm looking forward to weekend again...... Baby is gonna POP in 2 weeks time.. how i wish that's ORD that i'm typing.... anyway, he's getting 2 weeks of break after POP and it will be the longest period that we can spend time with each others since he got into army! im jus sooooo looking forward to it! heheh <333

2008-11-21T10:39:00.000+08:00

I didn't sleep well last night.. Quarrelled with baby again over a stupid issue.. At first i blamed hui for being nosey telling him but well, i have thought over it, it's my fault for not telling u in the first place, but trust me, i didnt want to hide it for long but waiting for u to book out first and i will still tell u.. this is always a problem between us, and it depends on us if we can solve it together or not.. For me, i think we can never solve this, no matter what i do.. there's really no option for me to choose for both of us to be happy with.. I understand that you do trust me, it's just the character of yours behaving like this, but what can i possibly do?! It's your nature....... and you are right... all i can do and i have to do.... is to endure.... so that means i have to endure this forever, and that also means once this problem occurs one time, we'll always quarrel one time, and i have to endure one time.... the game of endurance is never gonna end..... I better pray hard that im able to conquer every single stage... I hate this.... ;;

2008-11-20T12:30:00.004+08:00

So boringggggg~~ I finish doing everything that i can do in the office... so im trying to look for some more work that i can make the time pass!!

I'm gonna post the pictures of the scrapbook that i have done for baby, gift for our first year anniversary! (=

The Cover Page!

Hehe First Page with all the first kiss and whatsoever =p

2nd page, our first movie!

3rd page, some of our sad incidents happened in our first year ;;

4th page, our first month anniversary

5th page, 2nd and 3rd month spent together =p

6th page, our first overseas trip - Batam!

7th page, we spent time working n saving in our 7th n 8th months (=

8th page, we went to an expensive restaurant for our 9th month and also Thailand trip!

9th page, he got into army for our 10th and 11th months, fit boy now <3

Finally the First Year Anniversary!!! <3

A card with voice recorder attached behind for him =p

The End!

Are they nice?!!? Thanks to the help of Xiaobai, Wei and Timx too! Muacks!

2008-11-19T09:48:00.005+08:00

Yo ladies and gentlemen, I'm back~ LOL!

I received a new task from my boss to finish it within a deadline, and this is something like doing OT (overtime) which means i have to do it after office hours, actually it was meant to be done during the weekends, but i dont wanna waste my time with baby doing my work, so Tooties, i can't meet out with u girls that often anymore till i finish my task ok, i needa go home straight after work everyday to finish it first hehe.. dont worry, i will still meet u girls for bball this friday if we are playing <3

Met up with some of the Tooties for dinner last night, we went to this Japanese restaurant in Clementi, omg the food is so..... not-nice! They were saying that im complaining too much, but the salmon that i got...... imo, cannot make it!!!!! LOL! So i went back home after that, supposed to get a shower n carry on with my OT, but i was so tired that i fell asleep on my sofaaa!!!! that was so bad la ;; i was half awake when baby called, and didnt really talk much with him.. so bad!! ;;

Anyway i'm back here blogging in the office now, suppose to have 2 appointments this morning, but one cancelled, and the one postponed it.... -.-! Shall blog again another time cya~

I LOVE BABY!
and
TOOTIES! <3

2008-11-15T13:44:00.000+08:00

Omg i'm so bored cannnnnn......... im in jurong point surfing internet while waiting for the time to pass quickly la.. coz im meeting baby in like 5 hours ltr, which means i needa rot here for 5 more hours!!! gosh.. i seriously have nth to do.... girls! get on msn quick! i need ppl to talk to me ;;

Supposed to wake up late for all Saturdays, but i went to the office earlier on today for work, and i dont feel like going back home since im already out, so met up with my close buddy angeline for lunch lol.. so now she's back to her school to carry on with her revision and im here rotting la!

So boring.... i miss u la baby... all ur fault! hmpz! =p

2008-11-14T10:01:00.001+08:00

GRRRAAAAHHHHH!! I'm blogging in the officeee.... menses came..... and it's so painful nowww ;; i hate menses laaaa........ ;;

Actually, just wanna blog on some views and facts now.. I know that i'm a very straight forward person, and to my friends, if my words actually hurt u, i really dont mean it.. i care for all my friends, and of course i hate it when ppl doesnt treasure friendship and not facing the problem.. In my point of view, i feel that, if you really treasure and care about it, you won't sit there doing nothing when problems occur but trying hard and finding ways to salvage it, if not you are not fit to even say that, "i care". Simple enough..

So xiaobai, if you tried your best, dont bother anymore, give the both of u some time to cool down and see how things go and im not afraid to say it here too, the other person is Alicia. I just want the both of you to face the reality, and solve it... Friends are forever and ever.. I hope that this post can knock the sense out of the both of u..

Ok i needa relax now... this menses is fucking killing meeeeeee @!$%~$^%T$~#^$%&%^*$%@$^!$%&^%*^@%*&^%&@%*! byeeeeee!!

2008-11-13T09:33:00.000+08:00

Yo everybody~ Lol i have friends complaining that my posts are always not dedicated to them but my sweet baby hahahhaa! Here's a post to them! (I will try to make it long but no guarantee LOL)

Let me start from the day that baby booked in, I went over to the town area and spent my night with the Tooties lol! Met them in one cute Japanese restaurant and so we took a bus to PS. I spent on a new pair of shoe, a duber nice cap for baby, facial masks and nail polish... Spent so much but not more than Peiyi though LOL! >.>!

Lets talk about ytd, met xiaobai the emo girl in Raffles Mrt Station LOL and we travelled to Causeway Point together.. The 3 pretty sisters bought a set of masks each and 2 bottles of skin care lotions worth of $167.20 =/ (omg i hope baby doesnt read this post, if not im gonna be in dead meat.....) NO CHOICE! Girls need all these! LOL! Had our dinner in MOS Burger together, but i was the only who ate lol.. Oh ya! i had another ear piercing too =p I'm spending too much recently, i needa stop it.... i hafta save! i will try! i will try to save! ok so we headed back home and started our facial mask, cleansing water, scrubs, lotion bla bla bla.... LOL! Trouble girls we are =p

Blogging in the office right now, my dear colleague Vidhita went back to India to visit her family, i will be all alone for 2 weeks ;;

Missing baby again.... he went for outfield again for 3 days... cant talk for 2 nights... poor us ='(

Gonna get back to work! Cya guys and girls~ Love baby and the Tooties! <3

2008-11-10T11:19:00.000+08:00

It was a very very sweet and memorable weekend spent with Baby <3!>

8th Nov (Sat) - Our First Year Anniversary!

We went Sentosa for the 4D Pirates show and the Underwater World in the afternoon, and baby took me to a romantic restaurant named The Secret Garden for dinner. Omg, he was soooo sweet! He planned with the boss of the restaurant when he was making the reservation to make the dinner as romantic and sweet as possible. I love the meal so much, esp for the dessert part, it was when the lights are being dimmed and the "Sin In Love" being served with lighted candle, *faints~

9th Nov (Sun)

Baby prepared soup for me! The famous delight, bak kut teh~ LOL! I'm so sure that he can be a great chef man! After having our dinner, he had to book in the army again.. aww, missing him again.. well, met up with the Tooties in town area and we were as crazy as usual, shopping spree with Peiyi LOL! We got the bad influence of spending by our laoda, she's so bad LOL!

Here are the photos taken on our Anniversary~

The cute him

Touching the fishes =p

With our 4D glasses on (=

Lobster Bisque with hearts <3

We love it <3

Portobello Mushroom (mine)

Escargot (his)

Our Main course - Lamb Rack

We enjoyed!! ((((=

My red wine =p

The catch of the night - Sin In Love

The Lovely Us LOL!

Just a random pic in Bugis, Burning car we saw after the dinner

The Bak Kut Teh that baby prepared

2008-10-31T15:11:00.003+08:00

Hehe guys remember earlier on I blogged about baby's pork chop?? Here's a photo.. Don't DROOL~~ LOL!

Nice rite?! hahaha!

He's not booking out for this weekend.. having outfield training.. I miss him so much laaaa..... Heard that it's a really tough and unbearable training.. but im sure he can get through this and pass well! hehe he promised that he will prepare the pork chop again if he is able to book out next thursday or friday morning, gosh i just miss the pork chop so much! <3333

Oh ya, Cherry~~ so sorry! I cant make it for the clubbing tmr.. you girls know the reason haha.. enjoy urself ok, get as crazy as you can, with my share too LOL! anyway gonna meet cherry and some other girls for dinner to celebrate her bdae together hehe, lets enjoy ourselves tonight since we cant make it for the clubbing tmr lol =p

As for Xiaobai!!! why so hot tempered nowadays uh! 长大皮痒了hor!! any problems just tell me la, don't hide it lol.. 乖乖 *sayang LOL!

For ah wei, lalala~ don't even know when can u read this post LOL! I finished watching hotshot episode 14!! BLEAHX! don't jealous! you cant blog, cant watch, cant reply comments hahaha!!

Ok crap enough, time for work.. Cya~~

And I LOVE GOH CHINNSKII!! LOL!!

2008-10-29T11:35:00.000+08:00

I JUST FCUKING HATE MY YOUNGEST SISTER! How I wish she can just be sent to the girls' home asap! having her at home is nothing but an useless dump rotting, waiting to be thrown and buried in a wasteland! yes i fcuking hate her to this extent.. what did she do to help out with the financial in the family.. NOTHING! what she's good in, SPENDING LIKE NOBODY'S BUSINESS and ignoring family members, giving us that FCUKING face attitude... oh ya last but not least, being a flirty ass hole... having a guy sleeping overnight and call that "FRIEND ONLY", nice excuse for curing your lonely night and yet texting ANOTHER guy when he's beside... I guess ah ming is the only one who can tolerates your stupid, idiotic, attitude, and flirty character.... cant believe that i can actually hate my sister to this extent.. but i really hate you to the core now.. always giving family members that stupid attitude of yours and totally different towards your friends.. if that's the case, just fcuk off and stay with ur friends... having you at home is nothing but a fcuking burden! stop acting emo saying that u wanna quit bball.. quit if u wan, nobody cares! just fcuk off from my life, you are no longer my sister.. that's all!

2008-10-26T23:32:00.000+08:00

Hehe blogging in baby's bed using his sister's lappy~ I had pork chop earlier on! omg it was so niceeeee and it was his first attempt! with mash potato and fish finger, very nice <3 I wanted to help out when he was preparing but.... ended up sleeping all the way LOL!! anyway, he was capable in preparing everything by himself and he didnt need my help! LOL! aww i wish he can stay this long whenever he book out.. 3-4 days.. so great!

Webcam-ing with Alicia now.. she's such an asshole! tempting me with all sorts of food through webcam and i cant eat them at all! idiot! si cha bo! I'm laughing like hell..... si tian shi...

Ah wei and the other surveyors will be in by tuesday, expecting more fun with more ppl in the office! haha.. do a good job surveyors! jia you!

2008-10-17T13:40:00.000+08:00

Didn't have any great phone calls with baby these few days.. We are always quarelling over some small and unreasonable issues which i dont like it at all and of course, i couldnt slp well for the past few nights.. Met up with Nigel and Timx for dinner and pool last night and it reminds me of those days that we used to hang out with the Audition Family.. I miss those days.. Si sister, u better make urself free the next time!

So sian.. i miss the Tooties already, although i jus met up with them 2 days ago LOL! Not sure if we are playing bball ltr on.. Xiaobai might go over to her friend's chalet.. Peiyi, don't get too sad over him ok, he's not worth it.. Cheer up and let us know whenever u need someone besides you ok <3 (just don't look for me during the weekends, sorry!)

Oh ya, I will post all the photos that we took during the BBQ session when "ALICIA" is available and send it to me! P.S ALICIA, everyone is waiting for ur photos!!!

2008-10-10T19:11:00.002+08:00

I'm back~~ I realised some issues..

1st, that's my feelings for Brownie will never change no matter he's with me or not.. even though he's away from us now, but we can actually sense him everywhere in the house.. Brownie is away from us but yet he's with us too LOL!

2nd, I didnt blog a lot on my baby! (though most of my recent posts are about him, but I don't think that's enough haha!) He seriously changed a lot compared to the times when we just got together and I really treasure and appreciate it.. Here's a list of his changes, envy me LOL! =p

Past	Present
- He was a f.l.i.r.t. =p	- Totally me! Mine! No one else <3
- He didnt do much when he made me sad.	- Won't hesitate being mushy, the first to apologise and give in most of the time, by all means, just to make me smile. <3
- Went clubbing frequently.	- Doesn't even like to club now (don't like me to go as well >.>)
- Got jealous easily!	- Gets jealous easily! <3 (will never change for this LOL)
- Appearance was so important that he took ages to style his hair~	- Doesn't even bother about how he looks anymore lol! <3

Wow Handsome <3

Note the differences? LOL!

Hahah baby is so sweet, missing him so much ;; just 2 more years!!

3rd, I HAVE BEEN GOING OVER TO YEW TEE EVERY NIGHT IN THIS WEEK...... LOL~ but honestly, it's always fun hanging around with this gang of friends.. laughter forever (esp with Alicia around....)

OK DONE~ I'm sure that everyone is enjoying this blog LOL!!! so sweet rite?? hahahhaa

P.S. baby~~ dont kill me when u read this post ok? muacksssss~

2008-10-06T16:04:00.000+08:00

2nd of Oct 2008, the day that is printed in my mind forever, Brownie left us, due to heart failure.. I miss him so much, so used to having him in the house, for like 4 years.. waking up seeing him by my side, someone who was always happy when i get home, the way he welcomed me back home, crying in the middle of the night because no one was there to pat him, someone who was so scared of shower but always happy and excited after his shower, someone who always 撒嬌 when i changed into my basketball outfit wanting me to bring him along and i would definitely fall for his trick without fail, someone who was so fierce whenever he eats, someone who couldn't be disturb whenever he sleeps if not.... someone who never failed to keep old court noisy.. someone who loves ice cream soooooo much... someone who everyone of us loves........ brownie.. i miss you so much.... 我不捨得你..... brownie.... jiejie loves you forever.. forever... Mummy was telling us that you will be reincarnated as a human being, please choose to be my kid in future ok.. I wont forget you.. ;;

2008-09-24T17:02:00.001+08:00

Hehehe~~ I'm here blogging in the office.. quite a tiring day ;; didnt get a rest except for a short lunch break and now haha =p had too many stuffs to do.. calculating expenses, creating format to arrange it, submitting proposals, scanning stuffs to the comp, alot more~ anyway i enjoy working here.. Boss and colleagues are really good, easy going and i feel so comfortable here and time passes really fast when i was busy.. without noticing, it's already 5:05pm, going home soon!! I love it when the time passes quickly, because baby is coming out this sunday!! I'm soooo looking forward to it!! too bad..... I cant hug when i see him as he will be wearing the army's uniform.... it's against the rules if we do that ;; so disappointing.. but anyway! i can get to see him! good enough haha.. tomorrow is Thursday already.. so shuang laaa... can't wait!!

Also went for bball ytd, didnt really have a good time there due to some rough and smelly spoilers who can only win by "official tactics" which is being rough.. Play by skills if you guys have the sportsmanship and not by strength when it's like boys VS girls... not gonna talk about them, mood-spoilers haha.. anyway, will be playing bball again this friday, in old court, join us if you are interested~

Ok~~ that's all.. I'm waiting for you! get out of that place fasttttttttt!

2008-09-22T08:22:00.000+08:00

I'm so happy today~~ cleared the misunderstanding between baby and me! I think i was the one who misunderstood him =x it's ok.. anyway! everything is just so alright now LOL! He's still as sweet as before, what was I thinking for the past few days.. Nonsense~ I have nothing much to write, just know that I'm very happy right now and I want everyone to know! hahaha~ In the office now, waiting for the other colleagues to get here (I'm so early today lol)

Anyway! I LOVE YOU BABY! I'm waiting for you to get out of that place! <333

2008-09-20T06:04:00.002+08:00

Dont ask me why am i still up at this time.. I dont even know what am i thinking now.. stayed up for the whole night, went for a walk earlier on, because I didnt feel like staying at home at all.. had an arguement with baby earlier on.. dont wanna go into details.. just feel that everything seems so different at this moment.. Seriously, it's beyond words.. Baby.. It's not that I wanna rebutt on every issues that we discuss, just that i have a mind of my own and also i think that i'm old enough to make decisions for myself.. Although u meant well, but can u stand in my view to think as well? It's really tough for me to handle right now.. I'm in so many debts, my family's financial, not used to you being in army and i'm still new to this job... i'm not a wonderwoman.. I'm stress, i'm missing you and i'm trying to perform my tasks well everyday............... you have never treated me like what you did last night.. Do you know that i'm actually guarding my phone no matter where i go, so afraid that i might miss your call at anytime and that's what i get from you, it's so heartbreaking and disappointing.. I have nothing to say anymore.. That's all...

2008-09-17T23:13:00.000+08:00

Hehe good news for everyone~ i have uploaded those pictures that we took in Thailand~~

http://s463.photobucket.com/albums/qq358/brownie1533/

Have a good time viewing these photos~ really nice view in phuket.. you guys will love it! Take care and have fun <3

2008-09-17T00:07:00.000+08:00

Didnt sleep much these days.. I have been playing bball for 5 days straight, and also gym for ytd n today.. i really enjoy going gym with timx n xiaobai.. We should fix one day in a week to go for gym regularly.. LOL! Xiaobai and Timx~ think about it ok hehe.. Thanks my friend! have been pulling u girls out to be as crazy as me LOL! The feeling is really addictive when training in the gym especially when i was sweating alot and also when you feel that your body is reaching the limit.. Most importantly, I wanna diet! LOL! Gained a few kg from the Thailand trip la.. ;; sigh.. hafta start working tmr.. wont have much time for bball and gym anymore..

I miss my baby so much laaa... Waiting for his calls everyday, i can get really happy whenever he calls me! You are training hard inside, so i hafta train hard outside too! I'm waiting for you so badly, come out fast!!

Ok, that's all for now.. I will try to blog as much as i can LOL! Take care friends <3

2008-09-13T02:09:00.001+08:00

I'm saddddddddddddd...................... My baby is in the National Service now.......... I miss you.................... miss you so much la.... Your face, tummy, shoulder, in short, EVERYTHING! The way you manage to tolerate my temper, and whenever i get stubborn.. having you to give in to me most of the time because saying sry is really tough for me =p Carrying my stuffs all the time.. Your smile.. when u get jealous, the expression you always give.. LOL.. I just love the way you are! You are just that perfect for me <3 wtf la.. only 13 hours since we parted.. the time is passing so slowly la....... i wanna travel to the future! just 2 years ahead is enough!!

I'm going for badminton with xiaobai and my sister tmr.. probably basketball after that.. wanna keep myself busy! xiaobai is so nice to accompany me for badminton! love you too la hehe <3

2008-09-10T17:34:00.000+08:00

Yooo I'm here to blog again lol~ Baby is getting into army soon.. 2 more days left ;; 2 more days!!! 不舍得!! Well, it's only the first 2 weeks that we cant meet.. I'll be busy working when he gets into army.. My saving in the bank is really pathetic after the Thailand trip.. I hope i can survive through till i get the next pay LOL!

Had a great day, woke up in the morning and went for badminton in Tampines, followed by basketball!! Been so long since i really play sports like this! Those days when ShadoWind met up every morning and played basketball like mad.. really enjoyed that so much... Xiaobai!! Please arrange one day that we can meet up in the morning.. For ONE whole day of basketball <3

Anyway! It's my retarded sisters' birthday tomorrow and the following day.. We will be celebrating in East Coast Park.. Troublesome bunch.. Picnic stuffs.. Food.. Hafta prepare everything in the morning.. >.>!

Emm ok.. that's all for now.. Photos.. another time again LOL! Take care~~~

2008-08-31T00:39:00.002+08:00

Yo~~ I'm back from Thailand hehe <3

A very long trip! 10 days haha.. I experienced LOTS of new stuffs.. Snorkeling in the CLEAR blue sea, night life in Bangkok (bad experience), nice fruits and food over there (love them), their unique transport(tut-tut), the idiotic speedboat which made me vomitted for 3 times in one day, and also the hospital in Thailand LOL! Menses came on the day and when we were heading to the airport to return to Singapore, i had menses cramp.. very unlucky.. no choice, so baby brought me to the hospital, he was so worried, poor baby, but luckily he was there, if not i might just faint there and *dead* LOL!

Aiyo really alot to type, cant remember all haha..Love the fruits and food there.. all of the fruits are sweet.. even the pineapples! special love for the mango yummy! tom yum soup <3 gained weight again la.. ;;

Took alot of photos.. but lazy to post them up now.. Maybe "another day" ok? LOL! That's all! hahaha good nite~

Oh ya.. Special thanks to my baby for taking such a good care of me in Thailand~ Muacks! Love you <3

2008-08-17T15:48:00.000+08:00

LOL, i'm back~~ Finally eh?
So sorry guys, i have been rather busy, and the screen of my lappy cracked, don't feel like using it to get online at all.. most of the times when i get online, i would in baby's house.. ok so.. what to update now? Oh ya! I'll be going to thailand with baby this thursday! Bangkok for shopping and >> Phuket for relaxing! Really excited about it!
Uhhh, there's also this issue that im really mad at.. REPUBLIC POLY I HATE YOU!!

Know what, i signed the withdrawal form from school last year, and they didnt even tell me that i hafta withdraw from the bank for my loan, and now i hafta pay the fees which accumulated since last year, a total of $1560....... Idiotic.. im paying for not going to school.... gave me a total breakdown on that day, so worried that i wont have enough money for the thailand trip.. so i called up to the bank and asked to extend the deadline to pay the amount of money, and luckily i get to pay by installments for half a year.. needa pay like $266 every month.. Really bu shuang.. needa pay such a lump sum of money for nothing.. =(

Well, here's something happy to hear, baby bought me a digital camera!! <33 It's my first camera in my whole life! LOL! I know this could be pathetic, but I dont take photos alot, yet i'm really happy to have one camera of my own too! <3

We also celebrated our 9th month anniversary on the date of 8/8/2008 in a posh restaurant <3
The beef tenderloin was really nice, drinks were very refreshing. Don't really like the side dishes, bcoz i don't take cold dishes, but baby loved it so much lol.. Guess how much was that meal for us? Around $140 for a dinner and we went Chijmes for a couple of drinks, and shamed to say, i was "slightly" drunk! Blame on the taxi driver, he jerked all the times! Made me vomitted in the cab >.>! Baby took a photo of me.. wearing.. my.. pyjamas.. on.. the.. wrong.. side.. hmpz!
*You better not show anyone else!!*

Hmm.. I don't think there's anything else to update for now~ Tag me if anyone reads my blog, at least let me know someone is still reading LOL! Love you guys~ Take care <3

2008-06-07T18:17:00.000+08:00

Lol.. ages since i updated, so sry ppl, have been busy working.. and yeah i quitted my previous job, the Soundarts Marketing (the scamming company). Don't wanna elaborate too much details on it, too complicated and long story haha. Anyway, we found a new job right after we quitted that. It's still in the sales line, but just a little different from the scamming tactics lol..
I'm missing and thinking of so many ppl these days.. all my crazy friends.. and also hani, darling and joy.. just random thoughts and i will feel so bad everytime for not having enough time to get online and talk to you girls..
I learnt and experienced alot in the previous job.. Experienced scams, and also learnt that the world is actually so complicated, it's really not as simple as i have thought.. I used to be an internet addict, and i admit that i dont really know how to handle politics and backstabbers..
During online days, i was really happy, no politics.. no backstabbing.. no nothing.. working life.. yes, i can earn money, but isn't as peaceful and happy as i used to be..
I don't wanna hate this world, but at times, I just feel like travelling back to the past without worrying about money, job, and all the responsibilities that i have now..
Just missing all the days that i had, they were so memorable with everyone around, i love you girls <3

2008-04-16T23:33:00.001+08:00

Lol~~ hi all~ i'm back!!! haha had been so long since i blogged, well, most of u should know that im so into WoW now, it's REALLY addictive! really not suitable for my friends who are studying atm, it'll seriously pull all ur grades down, dont ever try WoW for a bit if u dont wanna say byebye to all ur books =) Has been playing for like 1 month plus? and i maxed it already! great achievement! u guys must had enough of me saying WoW, but... im jus so addicted into this now haha!
Lets see.. my life is really boring, i dont have much to talk on.. besides WoW, there are only basketball and some gatherings with my friends, oh ya and the.. doggy!! (chicky) he was threatening me to write nice stuffs about him.. yawns~~
To all my 38s.. I'm so so sry!!! couldnt resist myself for not getting on WoW whenever i wake up lol.. i'll try to get on msn more often!! miss u girls so much.. T_T dont forget meeeee!! <333

2008-02-18T21:59:00.000+08:00

Hehe ppl~~ I'm now blogging in baby's house. Got bored as he went for his driving lesson.. everything wasn't that bad for the past month, well, there were tiffs and stuffs but i guess they aren't a big problem to us =p

Oh ya, i went back for maple LOLL (currently in World Cass)
Reason: Got bored one day, sudden crave for it =p
Went into AuditionSea the other day.. was really really bad at it.. missing those days with everyone in it.. Esp those days with 38s.. Crapping all day long, spamming chat box like nobody's business, spammed when missed <-- (we were really good at it *proud*), waking in the early morning just to talk in skype, rushed back home from work to be with everyone, mailing letters, talking about every single thing, mass web cams.. they are really really unforgettable.. *misses ; ;.. If to say, what actually made me got addicted to get online, it wasn't the game.. it's them..

Ok.. baby is gonna come back soon~ will stop here for now.. probably will update again in erm... next month? LOL~ cya ppl around muackss ~

2008-01-18T03:42:00.000+08:00

Sudden urge to blog.. found out that, i'll only think of my blog whenever im not feeling good.. and ya, i'm not feeling good at all for now, not even a bit.. perhaps it might be just me thinking too much, or rather thinking too deeply.. probably i was just being too naive in the past, i didnt know that by caring, could brought so much troubles to my friends.. sorry, i didnt want it at all.. i won't be like this anymore.. not anymore, i promise, and i mean it.. it's not that i dont wanna care, it's just that, im just too sicked n tired of it, in my eyes, it'll only brings troubles to whoever.. i'm stopping all these.. learnt and experienced a fact, dont get involved if it's none of ur business, u'll never know if u're just being a busybody or whatever they call, it's true, believe it or not. I'm really sorry if this post of mine irritates anyone of u/spoiled ur wonderful day, but at least, this is what i feel about "care and concern" from now onwards. Take care my friends.

2008-01-15T01:58:00.000+08:00

*Pewffff, i'm back =x* so sorry guys.. didnt know what to blog at all.. feeling so lonely at the moment and have the sudden crave to blog.. seriously, i miss everyone so much.. i miss my sec school classmates, the small box's members, e po, the interesting life in my secondary school with all my crazy friends, the days when my bball team mates and me changing into our bball's outfit every single day after school and headed straight to the bball court, being such a no-lifer in bball trainings.. i used to hate school that much, hate the lessons, hate waking up that early for school everyday, hate mrs chan calling me sunbear and being so bias! but, how i wish that i could turn the time back to enjoy all the fun with my precious friends again.. miss all the lessons, my teachers, especially mrs choo, all the homeworks (although all i did was just copying of homework from my baobei friend, shi hua), going to the toilet with the crazy group in the middle all our lessons and spent like half a period everytime in it, playing and fooling around when we were heading back to classes after recess everyday, having lunch with them everyday after school.. OMG!! I JUST MISS THOSE DAYS!! ; ; sigh.. sooooo emo.. maybe i'm just too used to have someone beside me nowadays and that's explains why im feeling so lonely now..
To my crazy friends, you girls are the best, always in my heart no matter what! Love all of you!

2007-12-10T23:36:00.000+08:00

Ahhh.. sry for neglecting on my precious blog LOL. Had been busy for the previous month.. busy working, outings with friends, dates with baby, etc etc =p

8Th of Dec was our 1st month anniversary, baby prepared a surprise for me! he ordered a bouquet of flowers and a teddy bear in advanced and had them sent to my house.. so sweet of him!! Thanks baby, i love them alot <333

在過去的一個月裏，所有事都是甜美的，對我來說，這種日子，是永無止境的
雖然經常會有一些誤會與紛爭，但我絕對相信，我們的感情絕不會因爲這樣而有一絲一毫的改變
我知道你愛吃醋，讓我感到很感動，但你根本不必擔心，你所擔心過的，全都不會發生
雖然只過了一個月，感覺上呢，真得無法用言語來形容，一切盡在不言中

and yeah.. so freaking noob-ass in audition now.. retarded fingers.. retarded brain.. miss audition ALOT!!!! wanna find some time to train back my skills.. 24 hours per day IS TOTALLY NOT ENOUGH! GRRR. 8 hours of work, 2 hours of transport, 7 hours of sleep, 2 hours to shower, rest of the time, either with baby or friends.. where's my time for online now ; ;
24 hours... 24 hours.... DIU. NOT ENOUGH.

Well, that's all for today, will try to blog again if possible LOL! take care my friends =3

2007-11-09T01:10:00.000+08:00

Back to post =x Haha, blog had been dead for long.. nothing much to update on.. but well, today, i mean November 8th, went out with sweetie.. had lunch at billy bombers.. which is for dinosaurs.. met up with my ex-colleague.. movie (Game Plan) after that, which was really hilarious! don't miss it if u haven't watch it yet.. and then bunk-ed LOL.. he sent me home.. and missed his last train to get back home.. resulting a cab back home, and he's staying so far away.. Singapore's cab is really expensive.. ESP midnight!! ; ;.. But, really, i did have fun today <3 emm.. to all my friends, no more "single" status for me.. and also.. don't ask me too much questions when we meet up LOL!
For me to know, u guys to guess. : D.......
Once again, take care everyone =3

2007-10-20T15:41:00.000+08:00

Backie!! Met up with Jesc hani yesterday! We weren't shy for a bit even when we were meeting for the first time! The feelings are jus like, long lost friends meeting up again, so nice of it.. so then i brought her around, shopping for presents, went for bunk.. WE WERE SO CRAZY IN BUNK!! ROFL! laughing all the way, and lots of people were looking at us >.>!! Billy Bomber( restaurant ) after that.. we ordered chickens rofl! and that made us thought of rainy immediately! *chickens* HAHA! we talked about lots of stuffs, in msia, in sg, and alot more! It was really fun.. but was feeling pretty down when we had to say goodbye.. im sure that we'll still get to meet each others again! This also makes me feels like flying over to Vancouver more!! I'm so sure that we'll definitely be much more *crazier*!! heheheh but that's 38s' behaviors, it's normal~~ LOL! ok some photos for yesterday's meet up =3

2007-10-03T23:24:00.000+08:00

BACK TO BLOG ^_^ BROWNIE IS BACK!!! WAHAHA!!! shuang!! someone called me earlier on, saying that he found brownie and wants to return to us.. gosh.. it was really surprising!!! THANK GOD!! hahhahaha! so then, my mum went to bring him back! aww.. he must had starved for quite some time.. he's so skinny now.. poor thing.. we fed him lots when we got home hehehe.. ok.. gonna carry on hugging and kissing with him now.. cya all <3 hahahaha!! HAPPY~~!!

2007-09-30T22:25:00.000+08:00

Here to blog.. but don't expect any good news, Brownie went missing this morning.. Ran out in the early morning when Dad forgot to shut the door. We only knew it after everyone woke up, when it was like 5 hours later after Dad went out. My sisters and I went to search for him, one aunty saw brownie walking around in the early morning.. only if we were there to carry him back, but we were late for 5 hours.. ANYTHING can happen for that freaking 5 hours...... We were out for the whole afternoon printing the missing articles, walking around, pasting them.. Brownie.. PLEASE.. come back soon.. we love you.. how can you just run away like that.. we are so worried about you.. I cant accept this.. sigh........ T___T
Thanks to my friends for helping and consoling me, thanks zell, timx and boy.. So sorry for being so hot-tempered, and venting my angers around..

2007-09-19T04:35:00.000+08:00

Back again, hehe.. PEOPLE! I had moved.. not in yew tee anymore ; ; no more macdonald at a late time.. no more dong dong.. no more chattings under my block.. no more 魚片粗米粉湯.. and and!! wont be able to stay out late in old court anymore.. sighhh.. missing everything and everyone there!! But, I guess, I'll get used to this new environment in no time.. I love the painted colour in my room, baby pink <3 I get to decorate my own room, new double bed, new cupboard, new desk for lappy, new office chair and new aircon (freezing my ass off). Had been really busy preparing to move, and also unpacking everything out.. I'm still not done with unpackings yet!! TOO MUCH stuffs!! Dont think i can finish it in any time too.. going to do it slowly.. haha! Brownie has not get use to this new place too, he's always running out of hse, running down the stairs. He was almost lost, but, he's still cute for this <333 LOL!

That's all for now, hehe, take care all ^^

2007-09-07T16:16:00.000+08:00

What to blog... *sighhh.. Honestly speaking, I don't really have an interesting life. Everyday's just like, working, back home, skype, sleeps. For my off days, it'll be wakes, skype, audi, sleeps. But I don't mind as long as they are online.

Was feeling kind of down these days. Beside missing everyone in skype when I was working, there was another problem that I was bothering about. I'm not going to talk about it here, as I had already solved it earlier on. I thought I would be rather relieved or happy after solving the problem, but who knows, I actually felt kinda ...... lost... I hate myself for being so indecisive! Does true love really exists? I tried to convince myself, but failed. I know I need to stop all these emo-ness, but it's so much easier to be said than done! Crap..

我真是無能，優柔寡斷！問題明明已經解決了，爲何我還對那一點點希望，依依不捨。難道無情真的勝過有情嗎？如果真是這樣，此時此刻，我真希望我能夠無情一點。愛情往往就是一個陷阱，但是人們偏偏就是要往裏頭跳。爲了短暫的快樂，真的值得嗎？我不懂，我永遠也不會懂。

To all my friends, I hope this post doesn't spoil your day T__T take care.

2007-08-29T15:15:00.000+08:00

Im BACK, Joy, u dont have to chant for my blog now >.>

Well, as usual.. Had been working and working.. Always got myself so tired when i reached home, but nothing can stop me from being online! LOL! Aiyo..
I can get so emo when im working, with my mind filled of skype ; ; wanna get online so badly!! But things weren't getting well these few days, everyone's like so emo and sad. *xin tong*
DARLING AND JOY! no matter what happens, 38s are always together, we have each others ok <3

Hehe and yeah, hani (puri) and me are crazy over games in msn now! LOL! We're always webcaming while we play! Sometimes i get so tired that i fell aslp in front of the webcam! >.> sry hani! LOL! I guess the game we enjoyed the most is "scissor, paper, stone!" LOL!! we were like so sync ok! so funny! SOOO DEADDD! haha!

I'm not really feeling well as in mentally.. for these few days.. everything's like changed already.. we're not like before anymore.. seriously, things will get so bad if there's a lack of communication. I dont wanna say anything more on this.. Those who can understand, bless me, for those who cannot, leave it like this =x

Wants to get on sea so much! But it's taking forever for sea to get done with their maintenance!
Hope that all the songs will be back after this patch! Sea's so screwed up with just the songs of Audition and Milk!

Okok that's all for now, take care my lovely friends <3

2007-08-18T01:26:00.000+08:00

Heeeheee =p

Sry for not blogging LOL! Aww, seriously, I don't know what to blog!! Well, I had found a job, a promoter, will get at least 1k per month. Although it can be really tired, but just have to work hard for the pay. But, I'll feel happy coz I'm a step closer to Vancouver ^^

Ermmm, WHAT'S MORE.......... oh ya! Joy and Darling had received my package!! So relieved! Went out today, and spent like 100 bucks. LOL! -DEADDD- Seriously, I need to control myself and start saving money!

Had a webcam fest this afternoon, with Joy, Niffy and Puri hehehe! Well, the craziest 2 definitely belong to Joy and me >.>
We are like, putting emotes, and copying the action of them!! So mad ok.. LOL! We were laughing our asses off at that time.

I think that's all for now. Will keep all of ya updated again ^^ Gotta slp, working later on T_T

2007-08-03T15:35:00.000+08:00

I'M SO FREAKING PISSED OFF NOW!! I'M GOING TO RANT IT OUT HERE! STOP READING IF U'RE NOT INTERESTED.......

FACK MY SIS!! She's such an idiot!! trying to be sucky in front of me?! U're still too noob for this ok!! After stealing my money, still being so big fack to me?? " YA I STOLE IT SO?? NO BIG DEAL RITE?? " wtf do u mean by no big deal!! u should be sorry for this, yet i only saw the word "ARROGANT!! " thinking that u're having a bunch of "GOOD" buddies outside? You'll regret for this, none of them will clean ur ass when u're in trouble! You're really getting on my nerves! I swear that you'll get one freaking tight slap from me if u ever ever give me this attitude again.. I don't care whatever BACK-UPS u have outside, try asking them to get me, I make sure that they will have to walk with their HANDS after that..

And now i have to keep all my money secretly (AT HOME!!) that can be so pathetic ok! we have to be wary at home?!? imagine that... I really hate this, but no choice.. having a theif!! Fack this..

2007-07-28T12:10:00.000+08:00

Me n Rainy were planning for our trip to vancouver,toronto and london ytd.. We're having so much fun on while we're planning and this made me day-dream like mad when im out T__T

Well, when we're planning half-way, i was feeling kinda sad about this.. WHY are they soo far from me.. its so hard for us to even meet one time n gather around T__T
How i wish we can get together and have some drinks, gossiping, shopping, and everything that 38s can do.. but it's like so hard.. but well, even though it's hard, we'll still get to meet, maybe nt so frequently but at least we'll get to meet each some day..

有緣千里來相會，无缘对面不相识 <-- Ya 千里.. we're really going that far to meet each others =p Well, i was thinking that this phrase r only meant for lovers.. i had nv thought that, it suits friendship that well too T__T

Emm, im getting myself a full time job soon.. really needa save up for next yr's trip =) i dun wanna go there without money to shop! that's gonna be so pathetic ok.. imagining myself there shopping and seeing things i like and wanna buy it but *look in wallet.. -sadded-*
HAHA! no way! im gonna save alot now, n enjoy myself to the fullest there =p

Dear, Joy, Puri, Shin and Momo!! wait for me n Rainy to get there!! We'll be there =)

2007-07-27T08:49:00.000+08:00

Hehe here to blog, went for a mass shopping ytd, bought myself new pair of shoes, 3 tops, 1 skirt, and 2 dresses <33>

Went to "This Fashion" n shopped for like 1 hour plus?!
There's so many shops that r having sales for shoes... cant resist the temptation of them! Well, i went into all the shops n there's one that gave me a really bad impression of them now.. the salesgirl was giving a really bad service n a bad attitude! but anyway i forgot the name of that shop, so dun be bothered by this. Guess what... i forgot the purpose that i went to mall! *PERFUME* grrr.. by the time i realised, all the shops r like closing or even closed! well.. so i went home..

Was trying my dress at home, really love it, except that they dun have a smaller size for this dress.. and, Timx gave me this "GOOD" suggestion, "Eat more!! so u can fit with this dress..........." nnd.. Haha!

OK dun ask me y am i smiling so happily! LOL! puffy was asking me that ytd, but seriously i dunno WHY! HAHA!

Hmmm anymore... i cant think of any to update now, jus woke, brain's dead haha.. will update again if any interesting happen =)

Take care everyone <33

2007-07-23T04:54:00.000+08:00

Today is such a memorable day.. received joy's package with letters, cards, tea bags, necklace and smth weird.. a tie LOL Awwww <33333

Things happen like this.. i was playing audi earlier on, got dam pissed off with my license, cant pass it at all.. then when my dad reached home,

Dad: " Xian, there's a package for u, go out n take a look.. "
Me : " REALLY??!?!? *leaving my license half way n sprint out of room* "
Dad: " Who sent it to u? "
Me: " My close friend in canada <33
Dad: " A guy?? "
Me: " Nah.. a girl!! "
Dad: " Why is there so much love n hearts everywhere in the package if its a girl.. "
Me: " Ya ya.. we're lesbians LOL =x "

SOOOOO HAPPY~~~ awwww <3333

And after i read all the letters and cards, went back to lappy n im still in audi.. i look at my lic n said " this time im surely gonna pass!! " and guess wat.. i REALLY PASSED with jus one try after reading the letters!

Its like 5:06am now.. yet im really feeling so excited n so happy.. cant get to slp AT ALL!
Love 38s clubbie <333

Tat's all for now ^^ take care all =)

2007-07-18T11:07:00.000+08:00

Got so boring today.. So jus felt like posting some random pics here <33

Marriage <33

38s clubbie doing brake dance n.........

all fell down LOLOL <33>

MLB GROUP <333>

MLB dancers <33>

i love this one.. Joy's mao mao raping the mouse LOL

Big family of mine.. found me??

Me n Timx camwhores.. <33

2007-07-17T22:29:00.001+08:00

Ya.. Joy.. u have to start blogging! Dead blog for like almost 2 weeks! So.. wat happened these few days.. emm ya.. went to sch ytd (finally) after like 2 weeks of my so called -breaks- LOL! well.. went back ytd.. its all the same.. as boring as before.. doing powerpoint slides, mock test, presentation n bla bla~~ met up with mami n timx that group, went to orchard for dinner and some shoppings ^^ bought 2 clothes.. one for me n the other for darling.. when i saw the clothe for darling im like.. omg GREEN~~ nice

Went for a few rounds of pool n gt so tired.. took cab home.. had a long talk with zell when he sent me home..

For today, busying packing my clothes.. mum is like "pack ur clothes!! u r buying too many clothes now!! control urself~~" and "those clothes r too small for u now! pack n throw!" grrr.. the words -too small- hurts me!! meaning i become fatter n fatter! hahahah.. well.. packed them for like 2 hours.. went for a jog jus now.. im gonna go jogging for like 4 days per week now! IS A MUST!! haha~~

ok thats all for now.. take care all